What are you doing now?

I am helping you understand me

• so you give me what I want
• and you get what you want.

How are you helping me understand you?

I am helping you understand me by working on this log.

Then, you can give me what I want.

Then, you can get what you want from me.

What do you want?

Right now, I want money for some things.

I also want to understand why

I had sex without a condom

• and felt confused why I didn't cum in her when I had the option
• because you may hypothesize from the worldview I would be more satisfied if I cummed in her, but I resisted the urge to cum in her instead.

This reminded me of a historical event where I did not have sex with a woman when I had the chance and in hindsight I do not regret the decision.

So, I won't regret the decision not to cum in this girl.

Why?

Money is a tool.

I am not acting in alignment to my worldview when I do not use the tool of money correctly.

How do you act in alignment to your worldview?

You act in alignment to your worldview by doing actions which agree and do not contradict your worldview.

Suppose your worldview asserts a human acts on their emotions to reproduce.

Then, you act in alignment to your worldview when you act on your emotions (i.e. your feelings).

Then, you do not act in alignment to your worldview when you do not act on your emotions (i.e. your feelings).

How does your worldview relate to money and sex?

Your worldview is human parents provide their children with resources

• and money is a tool you can use to provide your children with resources
• and money is not the only tool.

Your worldview is you represent "your children" when you have no children.

Therefore, your worldview is a human provides themselves with resources

• and money is a tool you can use to provide yourself with resources
• and money is not the only tool.

How does cumming in this woman contradict your worldview?

Cumming in this woman is not in alignment with my worldview because I did not feel like cumming in her.

My action is I pulled out.

I feel like "I did not feel like cumming in her for a subconcious reason and this log could all be bullshit justification, but I don't feel like log is bullshit justification."

I also feel like "I did not feel like cumming in her because she uses money unsustainably and therefore having children with her in our environment is not sustainable."

I feel like "Our children would die and we would waste energy if I cummed in her".

I feel like "Cumming in her may not matter because she may be using a contraceptive which is for losers (7461746095035514880) but even giving her the chance to have my cum in her is about my principles and I lack an understanding of them".

Why

Our children would die because I use money as a tool differently than she does and merging these methods of money usage in our environment doesn't work.

What is your environment?

Our environment is any children we have gives me a provisional liability.

todo - publish the following idea in a standalone note

There is a note I wrote about "provisional liabilities for men" where there is

1. sex without provisional liability due to lack of proof (chance of reproduction, but you are not liable for resource provision due to lack of proof [e.g., ons]
2. sex without provisional liability due to her choice (chance of reproduction, but you are not liable for resource provision due to her choice) [e.g., paternity fraud when she marries another dude]
3. sex with liability (chance of reproduction, but you are liable for resource provision) [e.g., marriage, child support]

You can also be liable for resource provision without sex but that is a different topic.

Our scenario when a child is involved is either option 2 or 3.

How do you use money?

I reduce my monetary spend (but not consumption) on shelter, food, and transportation and increase my monetary spend on power, sexual activities, and this shit.

1. I sleep outside and prefer to do so (except when it rains, because I haven't solved rain yet).

Suppose I had a million dollars.

I would still sleep outside instead of renting from a landlord or trying to maintain a house because it is more time efficient to sleep where you work (for which I have an unreleased video to demonstrate)
unless sleeping inside was more time efficient and resulted in better sleep.

Something like that and from my experience sleeping outside is healthier.

2. I reduce monetary spend on "free food" but increase food consumption.

7440456565850636288 shows how I track how much money I spend on food without free food.

I moved to another location to use free food locations, launched https://mealrepo.com and some other things and my food spend is lower. Next month, I won't have to use "money" to eat food but I can still eat more food (for which I have an unreleased logs to demonstrate).

3. I reduce monetary spend on transportation but still transport

I walk lots of places and use public transport.

I used to spend like 200 to 500 per month on transports but then i slept outside near work, then i moved locations, got new jobs, slept outside near work, etc... and when all is complete i will probably spend like 100 on transports unless it saves me money to save calories instead of walking... another ramble thing that i would need to add to my log for you to understand.

4. then I increase monetary spend on some other things, but these things are not like 100s of dollars, except for one thing which is actual non-alignment with my worldview. well, was.

How does she use money?

These women do not use money how I use it and I cannot support their lifestyles if we had children in this environment where I am expected to provide for them with an option 3 provisional liability.

How do you feel?

I feel frustrated because I only understand myself and at the same time I do not care whether you understand me.

I feel like it does not matter whether you understand me as long as I get what I want.

I work on this log which is constantly unfinished (e.g., "unreleased logs", "finish my logs", "unreleased videos") to push your understanding of me further

• perhaps in an effort to find the people
• who give me what I want
• and get what they want from me.

I have 2700 unstructured notes which do not exist in this system.

So, I am doing the work on the log
and also I feel like I want money right now
but not because I want money
but because it is a tool
to get what i want

and you are reading this
to help me get what i want
and then also to help yourself get what you want from me.